inferior, slut

Consent

What does that really mean? Permission is granted? Why is this even up for debate? As a girl a female I already know permission is not necessary? I never say no to any men… as female I understand that I am inferior to all men. I never understood feminism. I submit to all men. I seek their approval all the time..

CNC, inferior, slut, slutwhore, urges

free to use

type of CNC; i was out with some friends.. hung out pretty much all day..drank from bar to bar; eventually we got tired of the bar scene so got some booze and thought of hanging out at the local park..at this point we’ve been drinking and smoking all day…the group started out with a half a dozen friends; as the night came down; people are starting to go on their way home;soon there were only 3-4 friends left..and 1 of them Drew started a conversation somehow we started talking about CNC…and that got the interests of a few including me..at this point i already knew what it is and what it entails; so i thought..i’d like to learn more if there are more aspects to the kink CNC..

to ensure everyone know what CNC-side note; CNC – the C stands for consensual and NC- stands for non consensual is a situation where you give consent to whatever happened; the non consent part if protected by a safe word..which means you dont really give consent but then if it turns you on..would let it go.. if it’s something that you dont want then you can use the safe word then the entire situation is stopped. kind of like no; and it had to be respected; thats the rule of engagement; of course there is a fine line of how this play out. anyways thats how i understood what CNC is..

Drew then looked over to me..and went on about what free use is..a variation of CNC but once agreed; you are free use to whomever is involved and as the CNC evolves it takes on different animal. thats sound interesting Drew..the other 3 guys also said game;

fast forward; the guys took me to a house party in town..and the scenario is that were not supposed to know each other; and showed up in separate group; and im supposed to show up as the hired Go-go Dancer- someone ordered for the party. the guys arrived later.. the agreement was that i am free to use…and the safe word was not No..that would be too obvious. the safe word is FREE TO USE.

so i knock on the door in a skimpy semi rib tees with high heels; some guys open the door; i smiled..may i come in? im vickie your go go girl for the night…the guys said of course girl come on in.. guys im a go go dancer; so i will dance for you…in the middle of the room they cleared the table; and put me up on the table..i had a sign on top.. “FREE TO USE” was the game to see what people do..so the music came on and i started to dance..a guy drag me down to him and said give me a lap dance ..so i started grinding my ass onto him..pretty soon i was giving lap dances to all the guys..1 guy came and brought me a drink..then i heard the door bell this is when my friends Drew and other guys came in..crashing the party.. at this point. i was taking a rest..chatting with another guy..he was holding me..and talking up..and asked for my number..at this point Drew came by..and introduce himself as if we didnt know each other..Drew says: so youre free to use? i smiled at him and didnt say anything..but nodded yes i am FTU.

slut

mood

its been raining pretty hard the past couple weeks , when it rains im usually bored at home with nothing to do. whatever i wear to go out will get wet; so going out is pretty much limited; unless i carry un umbrella or a raincoat; thats no fun..cant really go to the beach or go shopping; so i hate the rain really..because it tend to dampen my plans; no pun intended of course..

what do guys do when it rain; stay indoors too? watch some movies? watch some games; tell me your go to plans when it rains…

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slut

Wasted

i’ve never gotten high and dont really do drugs; but on a few occasions; i swear i think im high; have you ever drank enough shit that it got you high ; sometimes a little buzz is better than fucken drunk; i dont drink til the point im going to puke or anything; i dont think i ever have. i feel that i could stop and not drink that much;..but then there are times that i’d want to be so wasted that i dont know what’s going on.. i want to be able to feel that; numb everything and lose all inhibition; have you ever thought of that;
anyhow there was this one time after i got done with finals at school ; as i was gearing to get my stuff and head home for christmas..i was in my dorm; most people already cleared out and head for home. i was about to leave as well; and almost done packing then i heard some footsteps from down the hall; the litted hallway suddently went dark; maybe the building just lost power?; the afternoon light from the window now only had dim light in the room; so i guess i need to get out of here soon; but i’m not finishing packing; i went out to the hallway; but it was already dark; trying to see if there’s a light switch; as i was moving down the hallway; suddenly i can feel someone breathing on the back of my neck. i turn around; but didnt see anyone. as i continue to move down the hall; then i found a light switch; but apparently power was out; i knew i had to get out of here very soon; as i turned the corner; a pair of hands reach out to my shoulder; that startled me;i look up..hello..? whos that? i found out it was the security guard; Mister Bob; oh im glad its you Mister Bob; what happen to the lights? he said i dont know missy; are you ok? why are you still here? i was packing and it all got dark; Mister Bob then says who’s here with you? i said im by myself; i was busy packing to go home and forgot the time…Mister Bob then took my hands and said follow me missy…so i went with Mister Bob; it was dark i couldnt see anything; so i grabbed onto Mister Bob. Mister Bob as if he knew that i was scared so he put his arms around my waist.. and led me down the hall..then i started noticing his hands moved downward to my ass..i was too scared and didnt pay attention; Mister Bob then said; hold on tight Missy; dont get lost..Mister Bob then stopped; and put out a joint to light up; Missy you need to smoke this; it will relaxed you; youre too tense..i think he has a point; so i took a couple drag; and i think that did the trick; i got relaxed; but then i felt dizzy though..after a few minutes; Mister Bob continued down the hallway; its as if we were going in circles or i felt that we were going in circles..so Mister Bob lied me down…then he grabbed me..and start kissing me and squeezing my tits; i go Mister Bob what areyou doing? but he wouldnt stop and I didn’t and kept kissing me..at this point suddenly i didn’t have any energy…he tore my top he started to suck my tits..strangely i got excited now and started to moan..he started kissing my neck and kissing my lips; not sure why i started kissing him back..he felt that i was responding; so he was happy..bitch you are so sexy..for the longest time i wanted to fuck you really bad..but you never even pay attention to me..bitch i am going to fuck you good. Mister Bob then unzip himself and pull out his cock; wow he is huge..i love big cocks too..i guess this is happening..i grabbed his cock and place in my mouth and start to suck on him. sliding down his shaft. it appears he enjoys it..Bitch suck it baby…as if he is close..he pull it out of my mouth…i wasnt quite done yet.. 🙂 he then shove his cock into my pussy..i moan with each thrust.. I hope he pull out; but guys never do…goes on for at least 10 minutes but hes still going…then he finally came..i can feel his cum spray inside me…he didnt pull out… Bitch youre going to have a black baby next year…!

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